I began this blog at the end of January, three short months ago. My tag line … “A blog about crossroads, change, aging, loss, health, stress, fitness, yoga, renewal … in other words, life” could not have been better worded.
It’s actually hard for me to believe that all of this … the THIS that has filled my 38 posts to date … happened in a three-month period. I find myself taking deep breaths the last fews days, needed deep breaths to help center myself, trying to balance in my new surroundings.
I will never again believe that I can’t accomplish a great deal in a short period of time. Earlier in my blog I commented on a quote I heard in the yoga class … something to the effect that you can change your life pretty dramatically in only months. As I round this corner, I see the truth in that statement. And not that I want to change my life drastically every few months, but when it’s necessary or life presents circumstances which require change, it’s good to know I can do this. Anyone can.
This last week was filled with so many closures. I received word from the cemetery that my mom’s marker was finally done. (Seems they have a shortage of companies that manufacture these particular markers.) I opened the mail to see a picture of her plaque, ready to mark her final resting spot. Emotional … the feelings rose once again to the surface. I didn’t even remember what I chose to write on her marker. Goes to show what a state of mind you are in going through the death of a loved one. Seeing the picture reminded me that all I wanted was for her to rest in peace, given the unrest her soul suffered during her lifetime. No need for fancy words. Rest in peace, Mom. It was perfect. “Julia” played on the Beatles channel on my way through the canyon the following two days after I received the letter. I hadn’t heard it since the yoga class. Coincidence? I think not.
After two years anticipating the end of my job at Virgin America, my job did just that, it ended. After what seemed such an eternity waiting for the merger to complete, the closure came in a flash. I will share what I wrote to my coworkers …
“Today at 1:45 I closed out of the windows on my computer for the last time with Virgin America. As happy as that makes me in one sense, immediately the tears began to stream down my face. I walked around my house for the next hour in a daze. The end came unexpectedly, one day early … I wasn’t quite prepared. Not that another day would have made any big difference, but somehow I just wasn’t quite ready.
I had a massage planned today for the day before my last day, since my last day I would be going down to the bay area to turn in my computer and badge. But instead, as I traveled the little highway into town, I was no longer looking ahead. I was looking back over my shoulder at such an amazing experience. The ride into town can make me emotional any given day as I gaze at the beauty that surrounds me in our little town of Cool, but today such an empty feeling rose from my heart, and I probably understood the term bittersweet better than ever before.
I will cherish my free time going forward devoting myself to all of the passions I’ve not had the time to pursue, but letting go of this Virgin experience and Virgin family is harder than I ever imagined it might be.
I think back to the day I interviewed. As a business owner of a small landscaping company seven years ago, I found my insurance rising so high that I needed to problem-solve. I didn’t want to give up my business, but I also needed a job that might offer insurance, a part-time job. The list of employers that offer part-time positions with benefits is quite small. I think airlines and Starbucks might be the only two on the list. So, it was a pretty simple choice, I was going to look to the airlines to solve my problem. It was actually my husband, Rick, who said, hey, why don’t you look into Virgin America, I’ve heard good things about them.
Good idea, honey, I’ll do just that. I went online, pressed send, and was attending an interview a few weeks later. I drove into the parking lot of 555 Airport Boulevard feeling quite resentful if I’m truthful. I didn’t really want a job. I wanted insurance. I wanted to continue playing in the gardens. I walked through the doors a bit begrudgingly, and some hours later (man, long interview process) I walked out the double doors praying to the heavens above that I might be lucky enough to actually get this job. I spent the following days wishing and manifesting.
There are different families I’ve come to belong to during my life. They are all unique, and I don’t find them all that often. They are special, made just for me. What I’ve come to recognize is that when I find a new group that will some day feel like family, I know it. I feel it from the first moments. And I am drawn in like a moth to the light. It feels like I’ve made my way home, and that is what it becomes.
It’s been quite an adventure these past seven years. And I won’t list all the ways in which I’ve grown and changed, but I’ll just say that I would have missed out on so much had I never been fortunate enough to work for Virgin America.
I’ve enjoyed working with such an amazing group of people, both at the airport and at headquarters. I’ve always been so proud to say I work at Virgin America … because we stood for something great. I will take that pride with me going forward, along with such sentiment for all of you I have come to know and love.
Life moves forward, money changes hands, deals are closed, investors line their drawers with hundred-dollar bills … but no amount of money can ever equal or match what we Virgin America employees walk away from this deal with.
Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart, for sharing this great experience and sharing yourselves with me.
Cheers to all of us … and cheers to Richard.
I’ve remained in a bit of a daze the last two days. Lots of tears, but also anticipation for what comes next. I’ve arrived at the crossroads I spoke of in my tagline. The past is the past. The future reaches out to me. It is a NEW DAY. It is a clean slate … and there are a few highways I could venture down. But I know where my heart is pulling me … and I am beyond excited to put one foot behind the other making my first few steps down the road that beckons me.
Taking a celebration vacation first … so I will be quiet for a week or two. I look forward to the next chapter, and sharing it with you all. As always, I thank you for tuning in. The journey is so much richer shared.
A PS few things I want to mention.
The blog picture was taken unknowingly by my dear teammate, Faye, as I left the building. I’m so grateful to her for preserving this moment in time. I sent it to a few friends and posted it on our work FB page. One of my oldest dearest friends, Colleen, responded saying, “Wow a picture is worth 1000 words.” Couldn’t have said it better, Coll. And I also couldn’t have been luckier to have a life-long friend like you.
And Margie, your text the other morning meant more than I can say. From one kindred spirit to another, we have so much to learn and catch up on.